Today I realized I'm not a little girl. Of course I am aware of my age, but it really hit me. It started by a junior high girl showing off her abs and me realizing that I once had a figure like that and never will again. Seems silly, I know. But then I started thinking more. The things that were once so important to me aren't anymore. Life's challenges and risks are much grander than before. I feel I am in an awkward place in life. Last weekend my old high school classmates all got together for a dinner and as we sat around and visited I realized how much time had passed and how much had changed yet I still didn't feel like a real adult. There hadn't been enough time for a reunion...or was there?
I have recently graduated college and still don't know what I want to do with my life. Is that bad? Most of my friends are married and are having babies while I am still living with my parents. I feel pathetic. There is so much I would like to do and so many reasons why I am not doing them. So it brings me back to my point that I am an adult now and it's about time I stand up and make a decision....starting with....what should my license plate say? ha ha, you thought it would going to be some profound statement. Nope, just random. But really, I think I will have it read "Jezka".
I feel the same way much of the time...An old lady at the pharmacy asked me what I wanted to be when I grow up on Friday....that was awkward
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